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| Setback |
just a shortie, having a tiny setback, this time affecting my eyes, so i guess i get to take a bit of time off the computer.
will see a specialist about this one on january third, with fingers well and truly crossed, writing is my reason for being here.
well just dropped in to say this, and time i wasnt here now haha.
cya soon i hope |
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| 14/12/2006
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| I need a vacation |
Busy busy busy, THATS about all i can say about life at the moment, Apart from writing poetry, completing the odd order (when they dont waste time)
im thinking about building a site all about pregnancy, birth, and babies to toddlers.
So writing my fingers off right now lol.Im even writing another blog http://mumsway.wordpress.com/ as a way of keeping myself up to date on where i am with it.
And also, Mr Genuis my friend is getting me to translate a few things for him, this isnt hard because i use a translator.. its just afterward, i have to retype it all into correct english.
Wish more people would send me poems to do, its MUCH more relaxing hahaha
Top all that with christmas coming, And my grandaughter to spoil (will spoil her rotten when her mums not around)I will be fit for the scrap heap soon.
Im adapting to what happened to me, wont ever be easy again i guess, but then life would be boring if everything was easy.
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| 23/11/2006
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| Soon it will be christmas! |
Yes.. how fast the time goes, time to start thinking towards christmas, and all the gifts we like to buy.
Writing poetry as i do, helps me out with a few aunts etc, so some of the problem solved.
writing santa letters too, as i will be starting to sell these again this year, kids love to get a personal letter from the man in red, bless them.
Just finished writing another article too, so i'll be asking my genius (and best) friend to get it put into my site for me, then i'll move on to other projects, i hope.
All here is going pretty well, grandaughter is a wee smasher, always smiling, and growing bonny, only trouble is, cant do anything while shes here hehe.
ok back to the grindstone, cyas |
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| 12/09/2006
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| Good innit? |
Well it looks like summer is coming to a close, and its only august, what a shame after a scorching july to have so much rain etc, but thats britains weather i guess.
Havent been doing a lot to or for site, with ankle biters off school i've been trying to entertain them, but, im back and ready to put nose to the grindstone.. so get pouring orders in, hehe.
As for me, im adapting slowly to the new me, and with Gods help i plan to try travelling again next year, not ready to quit just yet!!
back at you later.. as my lad says. |
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| 22/08/2006
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| what a hottie this summer |
Wow, how hot has this summer been? getting cooler now thank god, but it was well hot for ages.. phew
All here is doing ok.. grandaughter is a wee smiler, cute as a button.. and getting sweetly chubby
site is going slow, probably because of the summer, holidays and everything
I must say one thing though, i have quite a few people request poems, which i write happily, but when i inform them said poems are ready, i hear nothing more.. which is quite sad as some of these poems are reqested for grandparents and wedding etc, and i would have thought they where really wanted to make an occasion or person happy.. still these are the breaks, and im sure in time things will get better again.
On a personal note, MRI showed no change, so specialist is putting this down to an isolated episode of demylonisation, and in her opinion i will have no more, and it shouldnt progress to be MS or anything terrible.. its left me with walking problems, and a weak left hand, but now i have beaten the depression, i think i can cope, and adapt.
well time i got on.. cya soon |
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| 01/08/2006
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| Oh happy days |
Well, summers definately here,and dont it feel good?
sites doing well, had quite a few orders, but get a little disheartened when i write an order then the person never gets back to me! Still thats life, i guess some hope i will give out free poems, but its my work and i cant.
granddaughter is doing great, 8lbs now, i love it when shes here, but i get nothing done.
i'm feeling stronger, had yet another MRI, so i'm waiting to hear what's next, and praying its better news.
I have a lot of people wishing me well, and that helps, just a few words can make such a difference, and you feel so less alone.
well, back to work, cyas. |
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| 06/06/2006
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| Summers coming |
Yes summer is almost here, funny how the sun makes us feel better, well it does me anyway, i feel full of energy, better than in a while now.
My sites doing good, many wedding orders, its good to write soft loving things, makes me feel all slushy inside (haha)
Personally im walking a bit better, i'm slow but im on my feet, and im no quitter so i'll keep trying more.
Baby is doing great and getting fatter already, i love it when her mum brings her here, but i get little done because i just like looking at her.
Oh well better get back to it, cya's |
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| 18/05/2006
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| Baby |
Daughters baby arrived 30th april, a gorgeous baby girl!
Needless to say i couldnt be prouder or happier right now, 6lb 9 oz and perfect, so i've been busy the last few days trying to look after daughter until shes back on her feet.
My site is looking healthy too, ive had a few orders, so busy busy in all directions.
Oh well back to the grind, cyas all |
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| 04/05/2006
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| new pages |
Well i have gotten my head together and build a few more pages for my site. bereavement, pet poems, and 'i love you', about time i worked instead of feeling sorry for myself, its almost working too! (haha)
I have had quite a few orders too, so have been a busy bee. life here is getting back to a sort of normal, bugs me i cant do the physical things i used to so much (cleaning etc) but i do try to, im not quite ready to give up the fight.
Well back to looking for more ideas to build into my site, and laundry is ready to dry too.. see you all soon. |
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| 11/04/2006
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| New page |
Finally i have the new page in my site, sad subject but i feel i can help people with my poems to over come grief, this is always a good thing in my eyes.
thinking already about introducing a page for our beloved pets, will have to work on this i think.
I had better news today at my hospital visit. They are now certain i dont have a tumor (nice to know) and pretty sure its not MS... or at least not yet.
Only bad news was i might never walk well again, but i will give it one hell of a try to get right before i give up!
well back to working on site things, cya all soon. |
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| 06/04/2006
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| Getting on with it |
Today i decided to work seriously on my site.. so i'm going to add a new page, when its ready, about time i got back to work i think.
The crumb snatchers are all well, and i feel ok so best thing is to knuckle down to something other than feeling sorry for myself.
Daughters baby is due in 5 weeks, so thats exciting, and im looking forward to that. We dont know what she's having yet so all bets are still on, haha.
Hopefully i can blog more too and keep all up to speed on all thats happening in and around my life.
well back to work, cyas all soon. |
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| 31/03/2006
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| Life |
well, im still here, waiting another MRI to see if im healing or not.. must admit im still nervous, though the depression medication is helping me,and im walking slowly a little better each week.
I'll keep trying no matter what, its 6 month since this happened to me, time to try to move past it.
Im scared this is MS.. even though the hospital assured me nothing apart the lesion points to MS, and im scared it isnt, and scared it will happen again and put me back to square one. Haha what a coward i have become, but as i said i will keep trying to get me back fit. and one day i hope to write here.. hey guys i been dancing and jogging!! till then i will update this as i feel to, and keep my spirits up best i can. |
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| 20/03/2006
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| waiting for the hell to end |
Had all the tests, and been told it was in fact a viral inflammation, not MS, not a stroke, not any of the nightmares i have had.
And after the second MRI, i have been told its shrunk, so i should recover. Tell that to the pain i get in my arm and leg when i try to walk, tell that to the depression thats choking me, that makes me cry every day, and feel i cant go on much more. i still search for answers, still feel stranded alone, apart from my busy gp.. i AM alone, and as scared as day one, wish i knew others who have been through this, someone to understand how i feel, and maybe who can give me a tiny bit of hope.
sorry to bore you all, but this is where i am :-( |
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| 12/01/2006
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| or lack of it !! |
Had another test since last week, this was sitting in front of a monitor, wired to the head, and watching squares bounce... thrilling... apparantly it was to see if i have nerve damage, something to do with my arm and leg being affected, the operator said all was fine.. so i guess not.
So here i am, non the wiser, still waiting next MRI, still scared, but feeling more and more alone.
Even friends dont bother to come visit, its hard i guess when apart from i walk funny, they see nothing outwardly wrong, so let me get on with it.
Hubby is back at work, and even mr genius doesnt talk so much anymore. I never really appreciated how isolated the disabled feel, until now, maybe its the depression, but i feel because im not 'perfect' im simply not wanted in the circles i was before, and yes it hurts.
I hope and pray the final results i get tell me i will be 'normal' again, so i once again have a life, instead of this limbo where i dont know whats next, and feeling so alone.
Rant and ramble over.. cyas soon.
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| 29/11/2005
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| 10 weeks |
It will be 10 weeks on friday since this thing happened to me.. spent a while in hospital (that was scary i can tell you) because an MRI scan i had wasnt clear if i had a stroke or not.. there was something 'not right' on the scan.. so a few tests, lumbar puncture, bloods, xrays later, i was sent home to wait yet another MRI scan.. hopefully.. to say this was all caused by viral inflammation.
Dont help my leg to heal, or become stronger, and so far i dont know if it will re-occur and i have to start all over again, so im being treated too for depression and yep, im scared.. but i will keep trying to heal me, and hope i have a full and fit future. Of course i still write, although i have moments where i wish i could turn the clock back, i know i cant, so i just get on with it. will blog again when i know whats happening, but this is where i am now, not a fun few weeks, and i havent been a pleasure to know, but i'm still here and still kicking! cya soon |
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| 21/11/2005
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| When you least expect it |
well guys and gals, its been quite a while since i blogged. i did have my greek holiday, and very nice it was too, i arrived back on the 13th, brown, relaxed, and ready to tackle my site the house and everything..but on the 16th sept, life told me oh no i wont.. not yet, i woke 5.30am that day and couldnt move, left hand side of me was totally paralysed.. a trip to the hospital told me news i wasnt ready to hear, i had had a stroke, a small infarction to the right side of the brain , they called it, as you can imagine it wasnt small to me.
life from then changed for me, no more smoking, a change to my diet, and drugs every day of my life, im lucky i know, i am alive, but the fear, ok the terror of another stroke, is stuck with me, and i tell you it isnt a nice feeling. Its almost 3 weeks since i was struck, i still fear as much as the first day, but i am determined to get well, despite the bad days.. yes folks the days when for no reason i cry and think no-one wants me this way...i have partial use of my hand and arm.. im working on making that stronger, and i have a leg brace to help correct a little bit of a drop foot, so i can hobble about a bit, so yes im lucky in this.. and i know God is with me, helping me through, well thats all for now, ill update you when i can on my progress, and see if i can get mr genius to finally finish my site, because one things for sure, poetry lifts me, so no way will i quit writing.
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| 05/10/2005
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| Greece, here i come |
What an exhausting week, and its not over yet!
Finally im getting a break away, with mum in law, and no hubby or offspring.. whooopie!!
But this week has been anything but easy just to be ready to go, washed and ironed everything i need so its fresh, and packed as far as i can, then the house to put in order, offsprings to make arrangements for so hubby can work without worry, shopping to organise, of course buying snack foods, so this lazy bunch actually eat while im away.
Numbers and route to give to all the family, just in case (why does doing that give me the eeebie jeebies?)
Still almost done everything, and in about 4 days.. im off to pastures new, warm, and restful. Hopefully when im back i'll have 1-2 pics to paste here, and not the ones where i resemble a lobster either, haha
So, i guess ill write again when i'm home, unless anything wonderful happens in the meantime that is.
Oh and site still isnt finished, Mr Genius has been up to his eyeballs in work since his vacation, so as yet construction is at a standstill, i think after my break i'll have to handcuff him to my site and whip him soundly untill its finished!!
Kidding really, he's a sweet friend and so good to help me out, i'll be patient... for a little while anyway.
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| 31/08/2005
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| Grrrrrr |
Dont you hate it when you make an appointment, and arrange your day to keep said appointment,go out in the pouring rain, only to wait then be told 'sorry mr so and so wont be coming'?
OHHHHHH i find that so annoying, and wasted no time in saying so too! Of course i was met with the usual excuses etc.. but as HE made the appoinment and i managed to get there on foot , in the rain, i dont see why he cant make it in a car because the weather is so bad..bah.
Anyway, last night was a better time, we went to a wedding reception, the venue was really nice, and we had quite a pleasant evening, the bride was of course beautiful, and the groom, by the end of the evening had trouble standing haha , maybe he shouldnt have accepted all the drinks his many friends insisted on buying him. I bet the poor lad has a sore head this morning, but luckily they were staying in the hotel where the reception was, so wont have had too much trouble getting to bed.
Mr genius is home from his vacation, so hopefully my site can begin to come together, ive written all the things i had to write that need adding to it, just have some more to do, and with luck i'll be fully operational.
Well better get to it while its kind of quiet around here, or i'll have wasted more time. |
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| 22/08/2005
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| Hectic |
After a wonderful rainy cold british summer, Finally we have heat, sun, balmy days.. Perfect!!
So a day at the beach, wonderful you say? well if it didnt mean so many steps up and down ( isnt fun when ur back locks and u have to be pulled up haha) and no sooner have you got ensconced on the beach, the tide moves in fast and the beach dissapears!
So its trudge around the amusements and a boat trip to keep the offspring amused. I wish just once i could get a decent cup of coffee while im out too, it would have been the blessing i need.
well i got a bit of a tan, and it wasnt such a bad day, until i got home, and realised you can leave the housework, but its still there when you get home!
The next day, sandy towels and clothes to launder, and the constant cry of 'can we go again tomorrow?'and a headache to die for, means again nothing done that i wanted to do on my computer, so i took the time off and simply amused the perishers with walks and dvd's till they got bored with me.
Maybe tomorrow i'll get some peace.. but somehow i doubt it.
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| 18/08/2005
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| ohhhhhh what a weekend |
Last night was ok, went to a friends with the other half for dinner, had a lovely steak then watched movies, the clever trevor has set up a digital projector and screen in his front room..so much more comfy and cheaper than the cinema!
Got me a new phone, so invited oldest offspring here for the day to sort it all out for me, a whole day, and to be honest.. im none the wiser!
Its one of those smartphone thingys, Nokia 6680, i'll say its smart ok, the bloody things got me beat(for now)but then im not the smartest chick on the block with techy stuff.
I'll bet Mr Genius has it all sorted out in no time when he's finished his vacation, and my site too.. where would i be without my best friend eh?
OHHHHHHH and then we got a call a few mins ago, just as i was putting my pc on, the clever trevor from last night, was burgled today.. Lost his laptop, cameras, wallet and other things, damn blasted people.. he was only out for a little while.
Sometimes, just sometimes things like this make you want to barricade yourself inside your home, but then the buggers win.. so we dont.
oh well.. maybe tomorrow will be a nicer day.
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